well, when things goes none here or there, it will do no good but to just disrupt things... when the decision is left to no one but me, I have to do it, isnt it? Can't be there waiting, rite? Yup... Realised that sometimes issues will only get clearer when "things" happen. Though sometimes it might get abit disappointing. yup, no doubt it hit me. Guess now is the perfectly correct time to do that. Things are just nice some how. No point to find more reasons, or should say 'excuses' le... it is juz get meaningless...

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well, new energy is needed!! That is what I have!!! Fire is burning!! hehe... =) whoohoo.... Go go go!!

work hard must also play hard... tat is my philosophy... New one, coming up soon... trying to refine it further... haha.... tiz week will be a great week!!!

hey hey... actually I was super duper nervous when I was told to meet Uncle James. There STUN. haha...

so thu' out the nite preparing myself to meet him le, but was cancelled in the last min. so sad... prepared le like wasted. but get to know why need to meet him le so roughly now know what is going on le, shld be more relax le....

So who is Uncle James?? I am not going to tell you.... wahaha...

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well, I am getting excited to where I am going le... keke... Life is GREAT!!

Luv ya!! kekeke....

Suddenly I plunged into a period of sadness.

I found something that is so old that is long ago. Kept tightly in an old diary. drop out due to clearing of stuff. I thought of someone who was so close to me. yet I lost him to fate/Lord. I missed him. No Doubt. Memories flood back. A person that was my direction, a person that teaches me lots of things. he was like a big brother to me. A person that can look for. About 5 years has pass. Why suddenly he came back to my mind? Why let me find it again? Don't know who understand this feeling. Suddenly a person that has exited ur life; came back in your mind but you have to realise the truth that he not be able to be back. How I wished he is still around with me as I grow older....

NOW: Stupid block nose been bothering me these days... tsk!

BUT:
I have lotsa and lotsa of energy in me now!!! Is like the energy keep inflated into me but seems cant find any channel to release anywhere... so hyperactive these days... haha.. my mentally is running so fast n faster that physically seems cant take it le. Hahaha... Is so nice to have something to work towards to, chase after for it. Is my Dream!!! Is out there for me to pursue.

Gotna a msg from my CC tiz morning. My CC is leaving for China next month. So going to meet up for dinner! yeah! hahaz.. well, she is leaving for good; or perhaps a fews years... she gave lotsa of guidance thoughout my 3 years in poly. She is juz a fun and loving mentor! Can rememeber even what she said when we first met at the orientation before sch term year 1 starts. Time just flew pass soooo fast!!! =) Wish her all the best den!

Meanwhile, there are some other things for me to look forward to. NYPPC trip to KS house & NYPPC BBQ (if any) & my spa session with min again... haha...

tiz is what I called Life! Colors! Is what I am looking for....!!!

This is what I got today:

The erratic emotions that you have been experiencing over the past couple of days should ease at this time, dear Aries. You will find that you are much more able to deal with situations that come your way and that you are more flexible and easygoing overall. Regardless of the unexpected twists and turns that pop up in the road in front of you, you have your pedal to the metal. You are strong and confident in your approach to everything. Do not doubt yourself for a second.

Haha... today something got abit out of hand. But I guess I can settle it. hmm... seems like the horoscope is quite accurate hor~!~~! haha... Don't ever doubt yourself! Right?! yesh!!!

well, Ride the Wave! the TITAL wave!!! whoo hoo!!!

here I come!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Yun!!!!!!!!!!! =)

Gotten 2 blows.

Did I do any wrong, and am I too believed in myself? I always believed that self-belief is the best thing to give yourself. Everyone may doubt you, but you mustn't doubt yourself. Else you fall hard. but now I started to doubt myself.

no doubt, I am abit sad about it.

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hope tiz Sun trip to Malaysia is a gd one. Hopefully can unwind myself abit.

why am I here now??? coz' I failed to do the things I need to do... I am guilty too. Felt that the expectations are all there, but failed to perform.

I am sorry....