Everyday, we have to make choices. Having options, some people said is good, some not.

I don’t like to make decisions. Always made bad judgment. Or should say I can’t accept any slightest error that will occur, I want perfect results. No, should put in this way: I don’t like to make decisions that will affect others. If the either option will only affect solely myself, I don’t mind taking risk of whatsoever.

Now for me is that, I dare not make any choice. Because either way, there bound to be heartaches/headaches for those parties involved. So, here I am in the “stationary” mode.

I think someone did tell me before, “How worse can it gets” type of thinking. I never try that.

Perhaps I am really in a vulnerable state. Any wrong move might just shatter me. Nor I am confident of it. Maybe I am just needed of assurance and support, somehow.

I am afraid.

today nothing seems to be right... from work to friends to family to transportation... haiz... I never like things to fly out of my control... even it is, I can 'ride' it well.. but today is non of it.

so is it me or the people? or is God having some sort of fun? I don't know. I wasn't angry with anyone, or myself. Is just feeling 'nor where here or there'.

this is an 'advice' from the horoscope this morning...

"A key word for you today is patience. Learn how to wait without becoming restless or grumpy."

so can I be grumpy? or juz a little grouchy? XD

hmm... here I come to vacuum off the spider webs, just in case someone complains (u r the only one person wor~)... =p hahaha... jk....

well, this week not much of update... hmm.. let me see....

I wana to change the color of my room since before Chinese New Year... but till now, seems no signs of brushing the walls of the room... haha... Well, I've got the color charts, but seems can't decide what color to use. haiz... my sis seems to 'fight' with me over the colors used. when I say I want dark purple, she wants light purple. then I suggested bright pink, she wants pale pink... OMG... Mum seems to 'flip' when we fight... LOLx.

well, I think I might take up the pencil again and draw a draft layout of my room and put in colors using the computer... I want to have 2 different color walls in my room, but can't decide which colors. Now headache thing is, com DEAD!!! irritating... haiz...

anyway, I don't really have much choice of colors... Mum gave me 4 options due to fengshui;- Red, Orange, Yellow & ???. a NO-NO colors are Green & Brown. haiz... seems like having options is equal to not having options.

I love blue.. so can use? can I? or can I not? well, I think Mum also close 1 eye on me ... =X

Perhaps I may paint 1 wall Galazy (dark grey) with another wall pale blue... or Sungold (bright orange) with Evergreen (dark green). I can't imagine what would be the result, but it just sound FUN!!! yippy!!!

last problem: with such the above combinations, what will be the color of the door??

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