Hey bloggy.. Its going to be end of weekend soon. Feeling depress abit. Well, these days going work is like going to war. No matter what issues or whom, things aren't running smooth. Breathing down my neck is what they did. I know bottom line is profit. Don't understand why L boss always use this sort of way to stress ppl up. Use bonuses, in reds etc. Damn sian. The year before told me abt office in red, last year was showing me the pl statement. A days back was saying something abt bonuses don't have. Zzzz... Feeling damn stress these days, chest have the tight compress at times. Didnt sleep well these days at all. The amount of load on me is weighing me down. Family, friends, health, future. I so worried ant yen everyday life, sometimes wonder what if i gone earlier then him, will he be ok? Worried abt my kids going wrong path. My health already affecting me. My period has been missing for months. Ate supplements as doc recommend, but don't seems to help. Well, funny thing is I always complain abt monthly period is a chore, but now isnt what i wanted??? But i am worried... What if one day got married and found out that the dream of two kids is dash, what can i do??? Its nt fair for him too.. His dreams of two would go down the drain too...

i am unhappy. Can i run far far away??? Away from all the people that i love n care? I can't.

Thats why i am stuck here... Save me.

dear bloggy ... I am so tired now. Of life at times too. I am happy now of sort but in the end at nite juz before i slept, i somehow was reminded nothing is forever. My family, my kids, my love. I have to go off one day. Meet my lord. U know how sad it felt?? Even wake up, its not juz a bad dream that i can tell myself, but something that will happen one day.

I am scared.

but who can i talk to abt my fear? Everyone faces what i face...