yday I should have go for a garthering. But I forgot that I have arranged to meet someone else before-hand, only got reminded by him later in the day. So finally I went to meet him. After postponed for a week. Was wanted to meet on Mon eveing, but I was just too tired. So drag till yday.
All along I just don't feel like meeting him at all. Even the whole of yday afternoon, I was so grouchy coz' of meeting him. Felt bek-cek, coz' I sometimes I can't stand him at all. But at least, he is conisdered a friend of mine.
He broke a terrible news to me. I was stunned. I am lost for words. Duno what to say to him. Guess what, I still questioned myself is he telling the truth or not. See? I am just so inhuman to think of such question at that moment of time.
Imagined what he had been going thu' for the whole week & he was asking for a aid and I dragging till so late then meet him. Delayed in meeting him makes me very guilty now. I can't help him at all. I was thinking the whole night about it. Questions came in, with no answers to it. I felt I was really too inhuman to question myself wheather the whole issue is the truth or not. But I can't help it.
I don't know who understand the feelings I had. I am abit messy now... yet sort out anything.... Felt STupid... Felt I changed, to a more curel person. AM I? AM I NOT???? Can someone tell me??? I am lost. who am I as a person???? argh~~~~~~~ I really don't want to face it again.
FREEDOM at 9:53 AM
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NOw that you know what is happening, and yet if you don't do anything to make it a beautiful one for the someone, then that will be what i call as inhuman ba..
Do something about it, do something meaningful about it, do something wonderful about it, do something at least for the someone lor..
When you lose your hope, lose your thoughts, lose your heart, lose your mission and lose your passion, then you are who you might not know anymore - a changed person, that is.
Whatever the case is, it is always good to touch the heart and ask yourself what you really want to be and what to acheieve. ONly then when you do it according, then you won't feel so meaningless..
You might want to counter-agrue my points, i won't deny the fact that this is tough and hard along the way, but when the fruits of your hardwork ripes, you will feel the sense of pride, achievement and moltivation to do well lor..
(Hard to descibe, but you will know what i meant)
All the best, fly high and do it with your sincerity and full heart ba..
Luck.. Smile!!
I understand what you are trying to say. And I know I always counter-agrue you also. Remembered you said, if I am to did it out of pity-ness IS BAD. I am yet to sort out that... Figuring out that feeling is hard... is frustrating....
I will sort it out soon....
Haiz.. there counter-agruments arises.. (Wahaha..)
Not to worry, but i would urge you to sort out the hard feeling soon.. Time and tides waits for no man. Once it isn't there anymore, well, i guess the truth will be, it isn't there anymore.
The trick now is to dy/dx (short form for differentiate) pitiness and friendliness (wow, rytheming!!).
All the best, nonetheless, at any moment when you need a listening ear.. Yup, my ears are here ready lor.. BUt, don't scream into it le.. Old people cannot take it..
:) know what is this logo suppose to mean? Then, you got to do it!!
hey ya!! I remember dy/dx symbol - DIFFERENTIATION! I prefer INTEGRATION... haha...
well, I sort of sort out some last nite... No point regret later right?
yah, Old Uncle you also jia you leh!!
=)
Old uncle here wanna to die le lo..
Sometimes, one way street has its disadvantages, that is, you don't know where you should stop or whether you have missed out the colours of the street. And that is sometimes, what i can't help but to be troubled about. Bring this issue to friendship and you would roughly understand what i'm refering to. Hard to stop, no where to rest upon and of course, no feedback..
I congratulate you for sorting out your action plans finally. PLan it, ready for it? Just do it!
Yup yup, smile and fight till the end.. Hahaz..
I roughly understand how it feels. Traveling on a one way road, one can't help it to doubt oneself that am I traveling on the correct road. Especially when a wall is hit, thought of giving up is there.
If still that person (u know who lar), just give some time for sorting out...
you juz hang on there!!! you can get thu' & reach the 2 way street!! You can do it, and I believe & know you can do it de!!
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