Just Being Myself

MY FREEDOM

Aries Ying

- stoNINg
- daydrEAMing all days
- Luv phoTOGRaphy
- cHilling oUT soMEwhEre

I've Been Waiting For You

You'll Never Find Another Love Like Mine

ATTITUDE

* FREEDOM *
* PEACE *
* HAPPY *

wIshiE (aKA shOppiNG) LiST

- ~~Sumsung D820~~
- ~~Givenchy ~Very Irresistible~~
- ~~neW hEeLs~~
- ~~nEw pAinT for my r00M~~
- Canon DSLR
- ~~nEW mOblie~~
- ~~cRUMpleR mEssenGer~~
- ~~eXternal Harddisk~~
- Volkswagen New Beetle Convertible
(after my License of coz' =D)
- ~~Canvas Shopping Bag / Sling Bag~~

The Novels
{some read ups done,
some soon}

By Nicholas Sparks

[O] The Notebook
[O] Message In a Bottle
[O] A Walk to Remember
[O] The Rescue
[O] A Bend in the Road
[O] At First Sight
[O] True Believer
[O] Three Weeks With My Brother
[O] The Wedding
[X] The Guardian
[X] Nights in Rodanthe
[O] Dear John
[O] The Choice

By Jodi Picoult

[O] My Sister's Keeper
[O] The Pact
[X] Plain Truth
[O] Keeping Faith
[O] Nineteen Minutes

By J.K.Rowling

[O] Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
[O] Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
[O] Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
[O] Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
[O] Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
[X] Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
[X] Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

By Dan Brown

[O] Angels & Demons
[O] Digital Fortress
[O] Deception Point
[O] Da Vinci Code

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

to me, just simple things will do. simple things that makes me happy. really. a simple gathering. a simple talk. a simple message. a simple call.

a simple friend.

it can light up my day.

simple as that...

a month has past I guess... so today is finally here...

last year, 28th May 2005 what I did was over. Today what I did is also soon over. what is important is what will I be or what matters is next year 28 May 2007. Is a Monday then... thats the time frame...

what I did is "po chu qu le"....

"so when will I exit the small circle and enters the large one??"

well, there is another thing summaries today: Is Ho Yuan's problem, not our problem!!! wahaha~~ yah, I hate him....

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

When agreeing to things that initially & deep down in the heart that says NO, things will go horribly wrong. Sometimes is not I don’t want to help, is more of the schedule and the ability and the interest perhaps. Mostly, is the sincerity that counts.

Like what Heng always says' "touched your heart & asked yourself" - to me is the conscience.

I can sensed that this person is “up to no good”. In the sense that I am still useful. But why I still say yes in the first place? Caused of a long story. So I got into this kind of “trouble”. Is nothing much of a big issue, is just some "PR problems". but it had made me so ARGH~~~

So I can only hope it can be settle soon, and I move on.

I hate Bounced Cheques. Empty talks. Talk BIG. Yup, felt that I am being “make used”, can’t help feeling that. Not once, not twice but many times.

And so this person has gone missing again these days for weeks. This person will appear again somehow I guess in the near future. my gut feelings says soon....

well, will see how the issue goes by.

Should learn. NO means NO.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Déjà vu

The term déjà vu (French: "already seen", also called paramnesia) describes the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously. The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eerieness," "strangeness," or "weirdness." The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience "genuinely happened" in the past.

Taken From: Wikipdedia

What it says today....

If you have put in your time and done your homework, this day can prove tremendously rewarding for you, dear Aries. Keep on the lookout for incredible opportunities that are hiding nearby. You have a tremendous amount of physical energy today, although you may find that it is erratic and a bit out of control. Break free from anything that seems to be binding you. Shed the chains and live the way you want to live.

Things are falling into places in front of me. Just coincidence or ??

Got the similar item from a friend > Read that book > Introduced to that game that is in the book > Déjà vu > ??

So the above things are freaking me out....

Nevertheless, what I leant yesterday was rather personal issues. I enjoyed the session. The talkings with Cai Yun jie, Jun Xiong gor and the rest are interesting.

What tempt me was:
* Beautiful Colors may/will be added
* The Unity of the people working towards the same goal
Why it tempted me? Coz' I missed these things that have exited my life.

but it Sound too good to be true... fear overcome me. failure? lost? alone?

If the completely "S" charater person can do it, Me, a charater of "S" & "C" should be able too, rite?

hmm... I still on the fence of nowhere.... haha....

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Simple things that wont fail to make me smile...

Monday, May 01, 2006

It had been more than a week since that Thur. Remarkably, this new lady I met, her words did make me think.

Surprisingly on monday, Monotonous stuck me hard. I suddenly posed a qns to myself. What do I live for? For who? For what? This qns came from nowhere but my inner self.

But I feared. Fear to explore the truth of my life, myself. My inner voice.

Senior did mentioned that he felt that he achieved nothing until now. He was lost. I see myself in him.

So what I was awarded Colors Award before?! that was donkey years ago. So what I got As in my subjects? It doesnt apply to my everyday life. So what I was once the Vice President of the club?! Is just a title. So what? is there anything else I achieved till now?? Nothing!! A Big fat ZERO. Don't you think so? Yup, A Big FAT ZERO.

I got too many qns with no ans came to me.

I envy those who had the will to fight in them. There is somthing they live for. Somthing that gone missing in me. I wanted to find a thing that I can live for. A passion that burns. or A battle companion perhaps. A person that walk the same path & fight along with me.

but Ken told me he is a person that fight on his own. Alone. He stated his reasons, and I see his point of view too.

I know myself, if I want to, I can fight till I reach what I wanted. In sec 2, I wanted to get into 2nd class coz' they offered Design & Tech. I love that subject alot. I cheong hard every day to get into that class. I am able to do that. Remember in sec days, wagered with James on exams results. I study hard just to beat him.

so, I can do it, if I want to. If I want to.

I used to tell my previous club president, "If that *A*** is going to give us trouble again, the most we will fall out. Make the issue big enough. If she finds fault with the club due to it, worse I quit." To me, is like po chu qiu le. Just do it. Heck care whether she likes it or not, I don't care. Just approve what I want. Anyway, I just hate her. In the end, I graduated with peace. No aruguements. I able to bring my point across when I forsake the load/responisbility that was on me.

To me, sometimes is the reponsibility that is weighing down on me that I have no choice but to walk the path that is smooth, secure.

Right now, I want to find a reason for me to fight on, to fight hard for. I don't want live to fight for a person. coz' I know when the person is gone, you lose the pillar of support. I don't want to be any other external matter for me to fight on. Is the inner self voice I want to find.

yah, this entry may be very confusing. coz' my mind is right now that.

so what is the wrong with me? any person can can pin-point that out?

on the journey to find the fire starter. wish me luck bah~