Its a weekend. Friday. A day I love most.
But I am not happy today.
Missed:
- Parties of the weekends out (Many many years ago~)
- Coffee / Tea and chit chat till wee hours
- Alone. Stoning. Or reading a novel at some cafe.
- Nua-ing at some beaches
Today is another day I don't think I am very contented with myself. Although I can choose to stone somewhere after work, don't know why I headed home for dinner. Not because of upset stomach, but just no mood to do anything else.
Di is busy with his studies, projects and exams.
I have:
Outstanding projects around my room.
Hotel yet book.
Emails yet reply.
Homework yet do.
But I just refuse to attend to them.
I just duno what to do. now. Don't really like the TV. Nothing much to surf online. No books to read.
My little refugee camp is pre-occupied now. I have no where to go but home. I think I am just not a homely person.
How I wish it rains now. I want to go into the rain at least.
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Someone is going Bintan soon. Although he going alone, I envy him. Alot. 4 Days 3 Nights, nothing to worry about. Just stare at the sea, sky and sun.
How I want to be like that.
I went there once. Its too short for me. I don't mind sit at the beach chair, and finish a lovely novel. Seeing life passes through is also fine.
Pack, Go and leave mobile at home. Just Go.
How come I have so many pull-backs? argh~
oooo!! my dear bloggy!!
My birthday just past 2 days ago~ old le >.<"
This year's birthday I felt blessed. Received a lot of wishes... Appreciate all the messages that came in...
So how it started?
Xia, Di and I went Yun's house for steamboat that Good Friday weekend. wow... we bought alot of things from SSC Giant. Well, we girls prepared the food in the kitchen, and my beloved Di was in the living room play PSP! haha... I think he felt out of place with us 3 messing up the kitchen! At least he is in charge of washing up after that.
Dinner was great! Abit too full. Actually not full, its bloated.
What surprised me was the 3 had bought a cake! My dear Yun still weaved a wonderfull story of 'Mum bought a cake, help her finish'. LOLz... I was very touched with their thoughts. I cried. er... a few tear drops here and there la.. wahaha... It was a very special cake: a Jackfruit cake!! Never eat such cake before... Yun bought from Armara hotel.
The girls bought me a beautiful necklace & earrings set. Very pretty. Very the girl...
Di gave me a huge box that cannot open till actual day. -___-" That box is just like the size of the "Good Guy" doll in Child's play... wahahaha... I never receive such a big item.
This day is very meaningful to me. I don't know... Maybe I feel contented with the girls and Di to celcebrate my birthday like this. It may not be grand of sort, but its peacefully enjoying each others accompany.
LOVE lost.
I am refering to the LOVE structure outside Fish & Co opposite PS. Di & I had a dinner on Tuesday. When we are leaving, we realized its gone!! I got a cake from him. A yellow pencil box too! ya... a one that I need it badly. Lovely.
Oh ya... I got for myself a Creative ZEN Vision M with the help from Di. wahaha... Its a special offer from Creative due to old series (I hope this is the real reason, not spoilt or anything). I think that is what I need I guess. Well, this add to the list of items in my bag for any outing:
* Shawl
* Pencil Case
* Journal
* Novel
* Zen Player
Realize mobile phone is not in the list? yeah right... Its optional for me. I love go MIA for a day or two or more... haha... Just at some cafe stoning.
PS: Super old model. No more case. Still looking for a decent leather case for it. dotz... wish me luck...
Another thing, Di booked flights to HCMC too. Machim birthday present like that. hoho... This is an impulse buying I guess. Hotel yet book till now. Good Luck to me! I can't believe that I will be on a plane to somewhere that far where language will pose a slight problem. heh~ Looking forward to it.
On the actual day, surprise me more was that my colleague remembered my birthday!! omg~ 2 mini cakes from her. Both are my fav: Black Forest & Tiramisu. She bought from Emi. So cute!! I appreciated that.
Its always my family tradition to have a cake on birthdays. I don't why, but I think it had cultivate my belief that Birthday is not a normal day. Its a important & special day for each of us.
Mum bought me a cake. That cake was cute!! Its a little doll girl on the cake. The baker makes it in a way that the cake is the gown of the doll. Pink color hair somemore. OMG~ so princess. hehe...
My whole family is around the table singing birthday song with me. I am really very happy!!!
Open presents time!!!
My little Zhong can never hold secrets. He so tempting to tell me what in there, even I act I don't want to know. wahaha... The wrapper was very cute. Have lots of little cows cows cut-outs done by him. Even there is a one that had a 'poo' behind it!! My kids and Mum bought me a tripod! I think Mum got help from Di.... must be de....!! hehehe....
Finally I get to open Di's huge present. Guess what? Its not another Eeyore from him, but a Phillips HiFi. Black in color which what I like. Very thoughtful of him as I have just throw the old one away to make space for my new wardrobe. Now need to clear some space for this little new introduction to my room... yeah~
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I still can't forget my 21st birthday party. I think I can't let go of the age. haha... I 'nian nian er shi yi' =P
Lots of birthday wishes came in. My girl Xia, polymates, my club friends, sch mates, my lovely daughter, my A-Math teacher, Jasmine etc etc. Sweetie too! Yun even called me in the morning! Of course I won't forget about my Di Di... hehe...
Not forgeting, a card came in a week before. The usual person that is always so thoughtful through out all these years.
There is a message that I am not expecting. I think Yun also stunned abit.
I am grateful for all the messages & wishes that came in. Its like reminding me how bless I am with friends and family that remember me. It telling me that my existance is worthwhile after all.
Thanks people!! I love you guys that much.
*MUACKZ*