Its a weekend. Friday. A day I love most.

But I am not happy today.

Missed:
- Parties of the weekends out (Many many years ago~)
- Coffee / Tea and chit chat till wee hours
- Alone. Stoning. Or reading a novel at some cafe.
- Nua-ing at some beaches

Today is another day I don't think I am very contented with myself. Although I can choose to stone somewhere after work, don't know why I headed home for dinner. Not because of upset stomach, but just no mood to do anything else.

Di is busy with his studies, projects and exams.

I have:

Outstanding projects around my room.
Hotel yet book.
Emails yet reply.
Homework yet do.
But I just refuse to attend to them.

I just duno what to do. now. Don't really like the TV. Nothing much to surf online. No books to read.

My little refugee camp is pre-occupied now. I have no where to go but home. I think I am just not a homely person.

How I wish it rains now. I want to go into the rain at least.

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Someone is going Bintan soon. Although he going alone, I envy him. Alot. 4 Days 3 Nights, nothing to worry about. Just stare at the sea, sky and sun.

How I want to be like that.

I went there once. Its too short for me. I don't mind sit at the beach chair, and finish a lovely novel. Seeing life passes through is also fine.

Pack, Go and leave mobile at home. Just Go.

How come I have so many pull-backs? argh~