Felt so funny today.
What or how will life be if one viewed life as Joke?
will feel: Happy? or Hatred? or Nothing Special?
hmm~~~
View Life As A Joke.
FREEDOM at 10:55 PM
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na~ here is the lyrics I mentioned that day....
Love Me by Collin Raye
I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me
I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me
Between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me
FREEDOM at 10:53 PM
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I have alot alot alot of things to write now... but I not sure will I put down all here....
today, I realised why I like that Xia so much!! wahaha.... she is the only one that we can talk about any latest entertainment news... like today, is Ming Dao... wahaha...... years back, where I have all the entertainment news at my fingertips, when me & Xia starts those entertainment topics, Yun would definitely go ZZZZZZZZZZZ..... LOST. whaha.......
for the past week, for this person, busy like duno what... you know who you are.... juz take care lar... well, I feel that at least you are doing what you like and what you want... well, I still searching.... at least you are busy with something!!!!!!!!!! haha.......
one day, not sure will I get this 'old people eat idiot symptom'... dont understand this term? direct translate bah... this phrase I got from this funky guy. haha... why I not sure will I get this symptom? coz I really realised my memory is really failling me... not sure is this dangerous mah.... well, heck bah... maybe one day I will lose everything, and live in my own world. sound good or bad? hmm..... one day I might ask: Who are you??? haha...
okie, the thing I realised I missed so much was, my CAMERA. I feel that I have really neglected my camera. though I did bring my camera out for shoot a few weeks back, I was like doing for the sake of doing it. oh nooooooooo, rusty! my skils lar... so wedding photos??!! NAH~~~~
last but not least, I have told someone that I wont step into somthing that I won't mentioned anymore. Is not only that. Think I won't easily trust anyone from there on. Yes, what was in the past is past. But I believed 'once bitten; twice shy'. Is very hard for me now to trust any new person/friend; for the world I see now. Saw the ugliness. so what was the catalyst? Backstabbing is one. which I HATE most. For me, am I wearing a mask from now on? well, At least, I know what I have written here is the truth.
well, I did start and end my day today with a smile. part of it is due to that message, and I appreciated that early in the morning. Is also due to a promise made. though today there was alot of happenings that was not so gd, but I managed to smile through. Though, I not sure is it a strong front I put, or is the real smile from my heart, I don't care. I did smile. felt like I never smile for a long long time....
rain, rain & rain... I love raining days.... juz like today!!!
Trust me, the Sunshine Ying will be back one day... Lets wait.
FREEDOM at 12:12 AM
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"An Apple a day, keeps the doctor away. A Smile a day, kills the trouble faraway."
yea!!~~~ I did smile yday. Not only smile, much more laughters. I was less tense then before.
the super late lunch at the "duno the name" place was fun. FUN was: making my own ice cream... wahahaha....... lots of flavors... hmm~~
shopping was next. whahaha...... I juz realised, when guys shop, they did alot of research 1st... i juz dun understand the logic behind it. You Like It, You Buy; Don't like, Don't Buy. why think so much when coming buying items?! (-__-'|!) haha....
FREEDOM at 6:15 PM
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I know yesterday I really raise my white flag le.... the tears accumulated untill lunch time. It is more than just work.
I never knew that I gave people an impression that I am a perfectionist, but I think I am not that. Coz of the sloppy work n attitude I gave sometimes. But I always did tried my best.
Guess, the emotions was very well released last night. It was what I had suppressed for the past few weeks. Did tried to feel I am fine, good and doing well. though somedays I am not. I am felt nonsense. I did control myself. my emotions. REALLY.
But I was wrong. I AM NOT. NOT GOOD.
"You are not sick of people, but people sick of you." I read it somewhere. Somehow I believed some aready had. I don't know how many 'thanks' & 'sorry' I needed to say. Sorry to say I have to keep crying for help, all the time. And Thanks for lending a hand to me.
If no one believes, perhaps just let it be.
Out In The Sea,
Just Above Waters,
Tide Keeps Coming,
And I Was On My Own.
Lights Was There,
But It Went Off.
Water Keeps Rising,
Until The Platform No More.
I Was There,
When It Was Gone.
FREEDOM at 10:24 AM
I really DON't like being sandwiched between people.got scolded for nothing.
For something I NEVER did, got scolded. being sandwitched between BOSS n CLIENT, SUCKZ!
that day really spoilt my mood. ~>.<~
then, Now, got stuck between seniors' issue. haizz..... :'''( I am the innocent party all the while.
For today, for something not my in-charge, have to take responsible. WTH!!!!!!!!!!!! AS if is my fault. Is the other party gave wrong information, now, is like MY FAULT.
@#$%^!@#$%!@#$%!@#!@#$
as if I never put in effort in anything. SIAN LAR. ARGH~!~!~
well, I also realised a dangerous habit of mine when I got so angry and stress. my POOR WALLET.
Spending money sometimes helps people to de-stress. kekeke.... well, perhaps is just work for me. haiz........... anyway, I found my FAV brand chocolate cookies! wahahahahaha............
FREEDOM at 10:47 PM
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